Why Me?

During these times of my life when I am jobless and feeling unfulfilled, I had asked God too many times, "Why me?". But then, I have heard Him say, "Why not?"

I have usually felt entitled-- having thoughts that I rightfully deserve the best things in life. The pride that I have clung on for so long is the one that God has been dealing with me right now. These moments of waiting and hoping have been God's way of making me realize that I have craved for the less important things in life: POSSESSIONS, POWER, and POSITION.

In this generation of multi-careering (a term used by Barna Group in one of their booklets entitled Frames) where people delve on several endeavors at the same time, I have found myself swallowed by my desire to climb the corporate ladder, to get pleasure from a high-paying job, and to be someone whom others would look up to. These are selfish desires that God is ripping out of my life. Where is God's ministry in my heart? Where is family time in my day? Where is my devotion to God in my plans?

This is what God has taught me: PRINCIPLES, PASSION, and PURPOSE should be my priorities in life.

1. Principles. I should continue to engross myself into God's Word and align my principles with His, living a life that is pleasing to Him and bringing Him praise.

2. Passion. I should pursue a career that is aligned with my passion and God-given talents, and not choose job based only on the huge amount of salary and the prestige of the position or company.

3. Purpose. God's purpose for me should be my lifelong pursuit. To give Him glory is a daily goal, as a Christian. I should be a vessel of God's love and grace for my family, friends, and loved ones. And I should be "salt and light" of this world.

At this point, I know that God is not only changing my career, He is changing my heart. I believe He is not done with me yet. And I'm thankful that He is dealing with me so personally that I can feel His hands molding me into the person He has designed me to be.