The Only Hope for the Breakthrough

I once at one time or a few had become a part of those memories. Alas, I had felt nostalgic of being without that someone who used to be mine. It’s the craziness about the things of the past, the battle between longing to recall and wanting to forget, a tragic battle in which I would had always seem to lose. I had been plagued by guilt and yet of the involvement that I had. It had gone along with the personal struggles I had. I had been very desperate to possess a breakthrough—a transformation, a maturity! Last Sunday, I attended the 9am worship service at Word of Hope—Novaliches. I thought it was just a typical Sunday—waking up early, eating a heavy breakfast, taking my one-hour bath, fixing myself, going to church, running errands for my mother. That’s all I thought there was. Before I went inside Cinema 8, I just knew that there had been a great combat in my heart. My soul was fighting. It knew what’s right but had insufficient strength to decline my “thorn in the flesh”. I recognized the necessity to be changed. But I never thought it was the time. Pastor Jhun stood up on the stage. His context verses were Genesis 32:22-28. It’s about Jacob wrestling with God and never let Him go until He blessed him. I had read this story several times before but it was only that time that God had spoken into my heart through those verses. I prayed that I was claiming for the message which Pastor Jhun was about to preach. And indeed, God heard me. The sermon was entitled “Breakthrough”. The main content was that how can we have breakthrough in our lives in whatever circumstances we may have. It could be personal struggles, sickness, doubts, guilt or anything else. But the point is we all want to have betterment of where we are right now. That was exactly what I needed at that time.

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The content of the sermon was simple. What we need to do have breakthrough, 1) Find God on our own. 2) Struggle with God alone. 3) Let God take control. 4) Endure! For the past several days, I’d been trying to help myself to change. Although, I could say that I was praying that may God help me with this one, but in the back of my mind, there’s a doubt if I could make it. I was struggling through and through, alone. And the reason is because I haven’t given it up to God. My mind was so preoccupied with what I should do when God can handle it for me. I have found out that all I need to do is to seek His will and make His desires my own, let Him take control and endure to follow His good and perfect will. I was reminded of the verse, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26) I was vividly touched by Jesus. That moment, He has come to rescue Me once more. What a faithful Lord Jesus is! He’s the only hope for the breakthrough that I need. Now, I can say that really, I have been set free from wistfulness and personal struggles I had! And today, I’m stepping forward for God’s will.